It is really hard to have the desire to work your ass off and not be able to.
There is so much I wish I could do right now...
1. I wish I could lift lower body.
2. I wish I could sprint.
3. I wish I could go to Zumba.
4. I wish I could do hill repeats.
5. I wish I could do a long run.
6. I wish I could run whatever distance I desire 4-5 days per week.
7. I wish I could do plyometrics.
If I did these things, whatever problems I have now would get worse.
Luckily, there are a lot of things I can do to stay in shape. I have been lifting upper body like crazy and it has paid off. I have been working my core like crazy and I can feel/see it getting stronger. I run shorter distances on the days I am resting from lifting. I am attempting to do just the right amount in which I get my running fix but I don't hurt my body further. Nothing is getting worse, so that is good.
So while there are still things I can do, obviously I would be lying if I said I was happy and that the stuff I am doing now- the stuff I have been doing since January- fulfills me. It does not.
But I am choosing to believe that this is just a blip in my life. That one day I will be able to do all the things I listed above. Maybe it's months away, maybe it's years away. Whatever. This has to be temporary. I am choosing to believe it is temporary, anyway.