This post may end up being a bit of a ramble... but that's how most of my posts about food end up being!
I am a creature of habit when it comes to food, but not as bad as I used to be. I definitely have my "standard" breakfast and lunch during the work week, but snacks and dinner have slowly become up for grabs. I am even becoming more liberal about when I eat my snacks. I don't flip out anymore if I am dying for a snack an hour earlier than "normal". I allow myself to have the freaking snack and just get over it!
I know this may sound foreign to many of you, but for people like me that have suffered with "food stuff" for most of their lives, it is so freeing to get to a place like this! Each little time I allow myself to listen to my body and listen to my hunger, it is a success.
Here is one of those instances:
After a hellish morning of work (there was a gas leak at our school and we were all shipped to the middle school and sat with our students in a cafeteria for an hour and a half before they were finally dismissed... a process that took over and hour), I got to come home for a longish lunch. I ate my standard chicken and broccoli, but then was suddenly just craving chocolate. Unfortunately, we didn't have any! Usually we have semi sweet chocolate morsels in the pantry but they were all gone. Still, I scanned the shelves to see if there was something, anything that would fix my craving. And then I saw it.
I ate it straight up with a spoon. It was so yummy. I didn't have a ton, but I had a good amount that was satisfying. I was a little worried that I'd be hungry for another snack later, and that the peanut butter would end up being "extra" food for the day. But the thing is, even though I ate the peanut butter around noon, it held me over until I had dinner at 6:00pm.
See? There was no reason to fret. I listened to my body, ate WHAT I wanted WHEN I wanted it, and everything evened out.
I know this is not a novel concept for most people. Most of you are reading this and thinking, "Um, duh Megan, that is how everyday, normal people who aren't fucked up eat."
Exactly. Am I one of you now?