I'm starting to think I'm becoming a wuss because now every time I get sick, I tend to make a bigger deal about it. I sent out an "I'm sick," Snap to my friends because I guess I wanted attention about it!? I also warned people who got too close to me. I didn't want them to get sick and I wanted them to know why I looked like death.
On Friday, I ran, because it was too early to tell how bad I felt. On Saturday, I woke up and felt horrible, but for some reason, I ran anyway. Ever since, I've been trying to figure out why I did that. I'll run if I'm mildly sick but not when I'm really sick. Yet on Saturday (one of the days I felt the worst), I suited up and out the door I went.
I felt so crappy, and after less than a mile, I stopped and turned around to walk home... but literally 5 seconds later I was like "Fuck that!" and just kept on running until I was done with 6 miles.
The whole time, I felt bad. Even my thoughts were negative. During my run, I contemplated quitting Facebook, quitting my blog... it wasn't good.
As I got closer to the end of my run, I started to wonder, WHY DID I DO THIS? Why did I run if I felt absolutely horrible. I'll normally run if I am sick as long as I know I won't feel worse by the end and as long as I'll at least enjoy the run a little bit. But this run... there was NOTHING good about it! It was probably the sickest I have ever been while running.
Why do that!!!!??????
There were a couple reasons I think I decided to run on Saturday...
1. Running makes me feel normal. It makes me happy. When I am sick, I want to feel normal and happy.
2. I was going to see family later in the day. I love my family, but it was going to be a lot of stimuli. Running is my "me" time when I can relax.
3. Sometimes I get high horsey and think that I will feel better after a run. Okay, this one doesn't make much sense at all!
4. Lately, I feel like I haven't been eating very well, so there was a degree of wanting to burn off calories. I hate to say it, but it's true.
That's all I could come up with! It was definitely a stupid decision. Next time I even think about running when I'm that sick, I will be reminded of this blog post!
Do you run when you're sick?
What kind of sickness or level of sickness will you not run through?