Yesterday was the last day of school for students. Normally it's an awesome day and I'm excited to be done with work and have a summer of FREEDOM. I am not excited for this summer. I do not care that it was the last day of school. I hate listening to people talk about how happy they are that it is summer. Everyone was so freaking happy yesterday. Don't get me wrong, I want them to be happy. They deserve to be happy. I just don't want to be around all of that happiness right now because I simply can't relate to it.
I spent the afternoon trying to cancel our Hawaii trip. Our hotels were able to be canceled without penalty, but surprise, surprise there are 5,000 hoops to jump through to get our NON-REFUNDABLE airline tickets refunded. And even if they except our request, they don't get actually refunded, we just get a credit. So United gets to keep all of our money until we are able to go to Hawaii again. This really freaking sucks but it was my own fault for buying the tickets. I am so pissed that we saved money for SO LONG for this trip and now the airline just gets to keep our hard earned money. I am so freaking angry right now.
When people ask me, "How are you?" I smile and say I'm good. But I'm not good. I'm sad, pissed, scared, jealous, and tired. And then I feel horrible for feeling these things because I think they are very immature feelings to have.
I told you this was going to be negative. It does feel good to put my thoughts out into the universe.
But come back tomorrow and I will have sunshine and rainbows for you!