I have been planning to do a knee update for quite some time now because a lot has transpired since I quit my first round of physical therapy. However, the task of getting all my thoughts together in a cohesive post overwhelms me because I feel like I have so much to say! This Thinking Out Loud link up with Amanda @ Running with Spoons will allow me to give you the highlights without going into boring details. Because really, who cares about my stupid knee other than me!!?? (And maybe my Mom. HI MOM!!!)
So I give you...
1. For those of you that don't know the back story, I have had knee pain on and off since July. Within the past 3 months it has gotten worse. It only hurts after a run. For other activities it is fine.
2. I had several doctors and physical therapists diagnose me with 5 completely different things that could be causing my knee to be inflamed. (Because that's what the MRI showed. Simply, "knee effusion".)
3. Finally, my chiropractor referred me to a physical therapist who specializes in gait analysis. This therapist is no joke. He hooked me up to a computer and watched me run, analyzed my gait, gave me every single test under the sun and came up with this:
- - My right leg is longer than my left leg by 1/4 of an inch. (Not uncommon, he doesn't think it is causing me to run weird.)
- - When I run, my left knee barely comes in toward my body (like it is supposed to) but shoots out pretty far (which it's definitely not supposed to). I've run on a treadmill in front of a mirror and I totally saw it happening. It's weird.
- I also have a tendon or other form of tissue that is rubbing against some odd bone that is laid down in my knee. My PT said, "No one's going to take that out." Gulp.
4. My PT thinks he can fix my problem and make it go away forever. He is teaching me how to walk again. Literally. I have been practicing walking. I. will. do. anything. to. get. better. I go twice a week for a month. I don't know if that means I'll be "fixed" by then or what!?
5. I haven't been able to run as much as I've wanted to for months now. (I would prefer 20-30 miles a week.) I really look forward to the day where I can run comfortably again. THIS DAY WILL COME!
6. I am not ruling out Boston. Heck, it's 4 months away. A lot can happen in 4 months! But I am also not letting myself believe that I will run it, because if I can't, I don't want to be disappointed. This is what I say to myself:
- - You've run it before. Some people never get to run it. Be happy you ran it once.
- - You will qualify again. It's not like this is your last chance to ever run Boston again.
- - Your problems really aren't that big. Boo hoo, your knee hurts. Check out this amazing woman.
7. Sometimes when I leave PT, I am very hopeful. Last night was not one of those nights. I am down in the dumps. I'm allowed to be though, right?
Other Thinking Out Loud posts...
Please tell me something HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!! I'm sick of worrying about my knee.