I hate feeling angry. Anger is probably the one emotion I hate the most. Recently, there was a situation that had me really angered. There is no use in going over the details of what was going on because it really doesn't matter. For me, complaining about it again is going to be like beating a dead horse! (Believe me, I have done my fair share of complaining about it.) You all have been angry before, so just substitute in any situation that angers you and you'll know how I'm feeling.
The thing is, the only way for me to feel better about this situation that has me so worked up is to let it go. There's nothing more I can do. I tried to control whatever I could control but now it's at the point where it is truly out of my hands.
Life is not fair. Bad things happen. Ya live, ya learn. All those cliches really are true. And being able to accept that I am not special, and that bad things happen whether you deserve them or not, well, that sort of mature thinking isn't something that always comes naturally to me. It usually takes a lot of reflection, and even accepting some responsibility that my own actions have partly contributed to this situation that has me so pissed off so much.
So I am choosing to LET IT GO! Because as soon as I do, I won't feel angry anymore! It will be in my past. Hopefully I will have gained some wisdom and something like this won't happen again!
The funny thing is, it's not easy for me to let things go. I am a very stubborn person. That can be a good thing or a bad thing. So when I let something go, it truly has to be a conscious decision. Sometimes I think I let something go, realize I haven't, so I have to try again. What can I say? When I can't fall asleep at night, I have a lot of time to think about things. I guess I will just have to force myself to think of something else until I don't have to anymore!
Would you like to share the last time you were REALLY angry?
Are you stubborn?
Are you stubborn?