At the end of the post, I promised you there was more drama to discuss but I was saving it for today. I had to gather my thoughts before I posted and I'm glad I did. LET'S DIG IN.
Drama #1: I have prehypertension!
I was pretty worked up when I went to the doctor and I warned the medical assistant about that. My blood pressure was 136/74.
I had always heard 120/80 was ideal, but since the assistant nor the doctor mentioned anything about it to me, I just chalked it up to the fact that it was a little high due to being nervous about dying.
But within my discharge papers, they gave me a printout on how to lower your blood pressure because I have ADULT PREHYPERTENSION.
The printout gave me tips on how to lower my blood pressure.
- Exercise 30-45 minutes a day- check!
- Lose weight if needed- N/A
- Eat a diet full of veggies- check!
- Get enough sleep- check!
- Lower sodium intake- GUILTY!
- Drink less alcohol- I could cut back.
But I was convinced the reason my blood pressure was so high was due to being nervous. But then I read an article that said even if your blood pressure is high in stressful situations, it's still not good that your body responds that way.
So I have decided to stop adding salt to my food. I normally add salt to pretty much EVERYTHING. I salt my Chinese food for goodness sake. I LOVE salt. But I should probably try to tame that love. I know the body needs salt and I know athletes need salt. But should I really be adding it to everything? Probably not.
The next day, I talked it over with my school nurse and she took my blood pressure. It was lower- 126/78. That's good. I'm going to monitor it. And stop adding salt to every single thing I put in my mouth.
Drama #2: I accidentally saw how much I weigh!
I suffered for years with being obsessed with food, exercise, calories, weight, body image... the whole works. I feel like I only get weird about that kind of stuff 5% of the time, which is a huge step in a positive direction.
One thing I never do anymore is weigh myself. My weight can ruin my day. It can make me feel like a piece of crap. I know that is not healthy. I know how much I weigh should NOT define my day or kill my mood, but it does. So my solution to that is that I never weigh myself. I determined that as long as my clothes fit, there is no reason to worry.
Over the past three years, the only clothes I have grown out of are certain shirts and dresses that are tight on top. (No, my boobs didn't grow, but my back and shoulders got bigger due to lifting.) But all my pants, shorts, and skirts fit, so I just figure all is good in the hood. Sometimes I feel a little down about how I look, but I think that is normal.
I never look at my weight when I go to the doctor. In fact, I make it a point to ask them not to tell me how much I weigh. But stupid me looked at my discharge paper and there it was, my height and weight in all it's glory.
I weigh 4lbs more than I want to. This RUINED my day. This convinced me I needed to go on a diet. I was crushed. My clothes were fitting, why did I weigh so much? Maybe I could have gained 1-2lbs of muscle at the most, but probably not more than that! How much did my clothes weigh? A pound? THESE ARE THE UNHEALTHY, CRAZY THOUGHTS THAT GO THROUGH MY BRAIN!!!!
I was really depressed about it.
I haven't counted calories in so long and pretty much eat what I want- which is mainly healthy foods but of course I eat dessert, put buffalo pretzels on my salad, go out to eat once in awhile, etc. So I am not HARDCORE about it. I have... moderation?
I knew what I had to do. I had to go home and try on a couple pairs of jean shorts I hadn't worn since last summer. If my shorts fit, then all is good, right?
The shorts fit. Whew.
But I was still alarmed by the NUMBER.
I KNOW I SHOULD NOT BE ALARMED BY THE NUMBER. I'm the first person to tell you your weight doesn't tell you how fast you can run a mile, how many pull ups you can do, how much muscle you have, etc, etc, etc... I could go on and on forever. LOGICALLY I KNOW THAT THE NUMBER BARELY TELLS ME ANYTHING.
But I still care. And I am ashamed about that.
I started tracking my calories on My Fitness Pal just to see what's going on. How much am I actually eating? What are my macros? Am I drinking enough water? I'm just interested in seeing what's going on. More on that soon...
If you know a lot about blood pressure, school me please! I'm sure I don't know what I'm talking about...
Do you weigh yourself?